Connor Maguire is a smooth motherfucker. Also, he fucked me while I hung upside down from a tree branch (see “Other Stuff”)
Happy New Year, everyone!
This is my best stuff.
It doesn’t have to be your best stuff.
But if you want, you can tell me yours in the comments.
Last year, I went into this-is-good-because-of-this and on and on. This year, just a list. I’ll meet you in the New Year.
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Nina Persson, singing her animal heart out.
Music:
These were also the two best concerts of the year for me. Augustines played an acoustic set in Nashville – stripped down and personal and intense. Nina is the best singer of our time, and her albums don’t ever quite capture how powerful her presence is live. If she comes anywhere near to where you live, see her. Her voice is unforgettable.
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Tom Hardy. Oh, Tom Hardy. From The Drop.
Movies:
The first two about spirituality and the paths it takes, echoing out into the world. The third, a crime drama with an amazing script. The fourth, a psychosexual horror movie that scared the shit out of me and made me cry. When does that ever happen? I keep thinking about them all.
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The occult intensity of Alejandro Jodorowsky.
Books: (as usual, I didn’t mostly read books that came out this year, so these are the favorites of what I read, not of new releases):
The Beauty of the Husband by Anne Carson
The Magus of Strovolos by Kyriakos C. Markides
Psychomagic by Alejandro Jodorowsky
Knockemstiff by Donald Ray Pollock
The Pillowman by Martin McDonagh
On the list, in order, a book-length poem about lost love; two books about spiritual healing that scramble your mind; a brutal collection of short stories; a hilarious and dark play; a fucked and undeniably entertaining novel about a woman who gets a job as a middle school teacher to seduce kids.
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This was a fun thing.
Other Stuff:
Took the year off from porn to eat donuts, focus on writing, and chill out in Los Angeles. I might do more, I might not. On the one hand: filmed gay sex with insanely hot guys. On the other hand: donuts.
My scene with Connor Maguire came out in January of 2014. I can’t believe that fuck in the woods is a year old now. Aaaw.
I now have a boyfriend, which looks crazy written down like this, but feels awesome.
I went to Mexico for the first time. It was awesome.
I was elected as Vice President of the Adult Performer Advocacy Committee (APAC) in the summer. I help improve the health, happiness, and quality of life for adult performers (gay, straight, queer, etc) currently working in the industry.
My essay, “What I Want To Know Is Why You Hate Porn Stars” was the cover story for the Stranger and became, like, a thing.
I appeared in the storytelling show, Risk!, for a second time, sharing the stage with Nicole Byer, among others. I talked about having sex with a straight dude in the Amherst Brewing Company bathroom when I was in college. So, you know: general interest story. That story is featured on the Risk! podcast, in an episode featuring Aubrey O’Day. Yes, that Aubrey O’Day.
Farewell, 2014. So much coming up. Can’t wait.
Love, Your pal, Conner Habib.
Conner Habib 
My Top 10 Movies (in alphabetical order):
Belle
Birdman
The Drop
The Lego Movie
Locke
Nightcrawler
Only Lovers Left Alive
Snowpiercer
Stranger by the Lake
Under the Skin
You’re my number one gay porn fan. You’re very hot, hairy and sexy in your videos. May you and your new boyfriend have a very Happy New Year. I wish you the best in the upcoming new year.
June 13th my partner & love of 24 years married me in Chicago. That is my Best stuff.
Happy New Year! Thanks for the recap of 2014. I’m especially intrigued by your reading list, and will give those titles a scan. Right now, I’m nearing the end of ‘Collapse’, by Jared Diamond, of ‘Guns, Germs and Steel’ Pulitzer prize fame, and hope to find something similarly thought-provoking for my next literary cruise. For me, current best-seller status isn’t especially tempting, having led me to disappointments like ‘The Celestine Prophecy’, The Zen of Motorcycle Maintenance’, and similar popular wastes of time and paper. Congratulations on your advocacy for those who perform in erotic materials; it just makes sense, to keep more people healthier, no matter what they happen to be doing in their lives! Best wishes in Boy-friend Land — it’s a trip. And again, perhaps belated thanks for your participation in ‘Armed Forces Physical’ (whenever that was for you); I still haven’t needed to watch that entire scene with Andrew Justice… For me, I’m preparing to ship a selection of my sculpture off to an exhibit in Maryland; beginning to learn a Shakespeare monologue, for an Equity audition mid-month; and waiting to hear about a possible job, teaching NYU students the fine art of glass-blowing for the Spring semester, out in Brooklyn NY. Yes, glass-blowing, with all the glory holes and the jacking off and other stuff. Thanks again for your fearless use of all your gifts. Enjoy the boy, and the donuts. Sincerely, Walter Zimmerman
I didn’t check out much new stuff in 2014, and when I did, shit wasn’t so hot (*cough* Birdman). So with that said, here are some old favorites revisited in 2014, along with some things I finally got around to and enjoyed. I chose 10 things for each category.
Books: Deviations: A Gayle Rubin Reader; The Science Delusion; Are You Dreaming? (lucid dream book); Against Equality: Queer Revolution, Not Inclusion; Montreal Main (Queer Film Classics series, from Arsenal Pulp Press); Regulating Sex: The Politics of Intimacy and Inclusion; A Users Guide To Capitalism and Schizophrenia; Curiouser: On the Queerness of Children; Caught: The Prison State and the Lockdown of American Politics; FJORDS volume 1
(poetry)
Music: Current 93: Aleph at Hallucinatory Mountain; Portishead: Third; Horatiu Radulescu: Intimate Rituals; Swans: To Be Kind; Cannibal Holocaust: Soundtrack; Unwound: Leaves Turn Inside You; Talk Talk: Spirit of Eden; Loren Connors: Red Mars; William Basinski: The Disintegration Loops; Blut Aus Nord: The Desanctification
Movies: The Vanishing; Inland Empire; The Dance of Reality (well, it was decent…); The Turin Horse; Koyaanisquatsi; A Prophet; The Texas Chainsaw Massacre; Halloween (original); The White Ribbon; Enter The Ninja (no, really)